Diary of Moshe Borger

Diary of Moshe Borger – page 14

R…a50.

I will write to her immediately, and if she replies that she
understands my thoughts and feelings, I absolutely remain in
contact by letter to maintain communication and until she
returns to Mielec.

                    May

The film "The Leper" by Mniszek51 left a lot of bitterness and
regret in my heart. I've seen noble and good people broken and
taken by mean people only because they were weaker. It
confirmed me even more in my pessimistic outlook on the world.
At the same time, I found out that there are people for whom
the duty of friendship, sacrifice for one's neighbor is not
just an empty phrase, people who have not been completely
blunted in their life's struggles and have become blunt.

Concerning R…i52 so far I have not received an answer, so I
don't think about bothering with it anymore. After all, I do
not stand so low that it is an unattainable ideal for me, I
cannot impose myself on someone else because by this I myself
belittle my dignity and value.

In connection with thinking about R…i52 and it came to my mind
and the question of what I intend to do in the near future. I
decided in advance to go to England, France or the U.S.A.
There I can get naturalized and pursue further studies.

50. Ruchcia Balsam. See note 21.

51. 1936 version of the film based on the debut novel of the same name (“The Leper”) written by Helena Mniszek and published in Kraków in 1909. There is no English entry for the film; see https://pl.wikipedia.org/wiki/Trędowata_(film_1936)

52. Ruchcia Balsam. See note 21.