Diary of Moshe Borger – page 8
tatorship, literature and art cannot develop freely, indeed! Even science. Everything has to stand at attention in front of the Fuhrer. 12. I was looking forward to coming to R.B…m28, but I really feel the lack of sincere friendship more and more. 13. I must now believe that my hunch is not failing. In the afternoon in the place (Saturday) I did not sing and dance something subconsciously. I sensed something wrong. Of course, the feeling did not deceive me. During the "oneg"29, I learned from Fema Fr…n30 that Ruchcia was leaving for Łódź. This news stunned me, the more so as I had not had the opportunity to talk to her "face to face" for a long time, and now I had no prospect of meeting her to speak with her and say goodbye. I managed to escort home from the premises, but bad luck. There was also her friend. During the conversation, she promised me that she would be on the street at 7:30. I waited but she didn't come. That's why I decided to go to the station when it leaves, but I can't talk to her. Due to the fact that R…a B…m is leaving, big thoughts are fighting inside me, the first one not to worry too much about it, so that I can look for friendship elsewhere with a clear conscience, the second dictates to me to try to see R…a And tell her my intentions and then try to contact
28. “R.B…m” is Ruchcia Balsam
29. “oneg” is Oneg Shabbat – the sabbath meal on Friday evening.
30. I must assume that “Fr…n” is Friedman. The nickname “Femy” is a mystery at this time.